Saturday, May 10, 2008
 | I hate you...you made me hate life...because you hate yourself! My life use to have meaning and purpose, now I live with regret and due time. When will things change for me? in due time? I should never entertain myself with such thoughts... I never saw anything...it was like a shepard in the night or a blind man at a picture show. No emotion...I pushed you away...so consistent you were that I was the one that got drug down. Addiction, maybe that was you? You drug me down like a virus, disease, infection that I could not shake. What I am to you? What I am to you? Good question. Am I love, am I hate, am I what should of, could of, but never did? Never did? ....story of my life...all the things I never did! I would never, should never, could never, because it was never worth it. Now nothing is worth it. What is worth? meaning that we portray meaning on something that we should have never wasted time on in the first place... There is no feeling in the world like wasting time whether good or bad. I want to, wanted to, would have wasted my time with you. If you really sit back and think about it...I love you which means nothing to me anymore...should be replaced with...I want to waste my time with you! Waste my God given time, you however, were never worth it... Was anyone ever worth it? Nothing has changed but my age and my pant size. No one is perfect, especially in the grand scheme of sugar coated emotions. Have you ever been decieved, persuaded by something that never existed in the first place? Maybe people don't make up themselves...we make them up for our own selfishness. My own approval....I approved my own approval! Praises to my imagination...and spellbound by your performance I was! |
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